Blahzay Blah.

I am seriously suffering from a case of blahzay blah. I'm hoping that it changes soon. I feel guilty feeling like this when I have an amazing little girl to spend every day with.

But seriously, I'm lacking human interaction. Normally I don't mind this at all but I think with Christopher being gone, it's getting to me. The only issue? I dislike the few people I "know" in the area. ha ha! I might eventually have to break down though just to get out of the house. Lame.

I never really questioned my parenting when Christopher was here. But lately I've been questioning everything I do. If she sleeps a lot, I start to wonder if I "pushed" her to sleep so I could have more BS time. Am I entertaining her enough?

I mean... what the fuck do you do with a 2 month old?! Seriously. What do you do? Do you hold them all the time? Do you entertain them every minute they're awake? How do you entertain them? I mean, what the hell am I supposed to do? I feel lost now. How did I make it through 2 months without feeling like this?